What I want now...

I want to be like who I used to be before I founded my emotions... The person who does things without thinking, saying things without thinking, making people smile when I can't smile on my own, making them believe in their self when I couldn't, ignoring sadness, making them forget sad memories and most of all, to get along with Adriana Salmi like we used to!! I want my emotions to disappear! I want to do things spontaneously like I used to!

Adriana!

I love you and that's all that matters to me!!

I want us to be together!

I want you so much!

I miss you so much!

Don't leave me alone in this world!

Because you complete me inside and outside of my life!

And,

I love you so FREAKING much!!

Please love me as much as I love you!!

Controlled by my emotions...

During my cousin's wedding last week, I felt really lonely... And whenever I wanted to be with my cousins, they just left me there... What did I do to deserve this...? And yes I know that I always say, "Tak pe lah..., Malaslah nak ikut..., Lain kali jer lah...", but won't they at least try to persuade me on following them? I guess I'm just nothing to them... I'm just a nobody... And now I'm trying to slowly get a long with Adriana Salmi, my girlfriend, like we used to be... Because on this week's Wednesday night, we had a fight... And it was all my fault that we had the fight... Saying sorry just by through the internet, just won't satisfy me on what I did to her... I wanted to tell her face to face that I'm really sorry... I hate myself... I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!! 




(P.S. : This soundtrack shows you how I feel right now...)