What I want now...

I want to be like who I used to be before I founded my emotions... The person who does things without thinking, saying things without thinking, making people smile when I can't smile on my own, making them believe in their self when I couldn't, ignoring sadness, making them forget sad memories and most of all, to get along with Adriana Salmi like we used to!! I want my emotions to disappear! I want to do things spontaneously like I used to!

Adriana!

I love you and that's all that matters to me!!

I want us to be together!

I want you so much!

I miss you so much!

Don't leave me alone in this world!

Because you complete me inside and outside of my life!

And,

I love you so FREAKING much!!

Please love me as much as I love you!!

Controlled by my emotions...

During my cousin's wedding last week, I felt really lonely... And whenever I wanted to be with my cousins, they just left me there... What did I do to deserve this...? And yes I know that I always say, "Tak pe lah..., Malaslah nak ikut..., Lain kali jer lah...", but won't they at least try to persuade me on following them? I guess I'm just nothing to them... I'm just a nobody... And now I'm trying to slowly get a long with Adriana Salmi, my girlfriend, like we used to be... Because on this week's Wednesday night, we had a fight... And it was all my fault that we had the fight... Saying sorry just by through the internet, just won't satisfy me on what I did to her... I wanted to tell her face to face that I'm really sorry... I hate myself... I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!! 




(P.S. : This soundtrack shows you how I feel right now...)

Sorry...

Sorry there wasn't a post 2 days ago... I was sick... ^^' 

But anyways, I feel quite better now... Thanks for Yuki-chan that has been taking care of me and cared about my sickness... ^^ Love you and thanks! I'm really happy just because of that! Anyways, watch this anime! Tayutama: Kiss my Deity! It's so funny and has a bit of romance~! ;3

I

♥

You.

Thanks for taking care of me Yuki...

I'll always remember your kindness...

And I will always, love you...

Watch!

Oh, my, god!

You people just have to see this video(But it's still not finished though.)!

(Click the word "video" to see it.)

It's just so sad! It almost made my tears fall! 

 By the way, add me on Facebook(If you want.)!

P.S: I still love Yuki.

I

♥

You.

Kai ♥ Yuki

forever & always...

Bad...

I made Yuki sad yesterday by saying, "If I don't reply to you, means I'm dead... But if I do, wow! Oh and if I'm really dead... Sorry, Yuki-chan... I couldn't keep my promise... ^^". I'm sorry Yuki-chan... I didn't meant to make you worried... I'm really sorry... I shouldn't have said that... *tears come down* >< I'm such a bad person! I'm sorry, very sorry, really sorry Yuki-chan! *more tears coming down*

I won't leave you... I won't make you sad... And I won't make you cry... But I will be with you! I will make you happy! And I will make you smile! I promise you that!

Hurt...

(It really hurts so much! ><)

At about almost 7PM today, my left leg started to bleed for no reason... And I can only move it bit by bit... And by 8PM, I felt like I was gonna die and I thought no one care or cry if I died... But one did... When I looked at her, I felt like I was guilty for making her sad... So, I fought back my feeling of death so that I won't make her sad... And at last, I won... She was so happy then... And it made me happy to... Her words, "I don't want you to die.. You promised me you won't leave me right?", made me realize that I have reasons to keep on living... So, I want to say... Thank you very much, Yuki-chan... Because of you, I had reasons to keep on living...

I  ♥ you.

(Picture edited and owned by Yuki)

Tired...

(Sorry for the blurry image)

I'm so tired today... But I'm worried about 'someone' because she's sick... Even when I'm sleeping last night, I'm still worried about that 'someone'... To me, her life is really important to me... I don't care what others say to me... She really is important...

I ♥ you always...